You are Safe to make Mistakes / Erreurs

I had this idea when I was younger: that one should only do things that they are naturally good at. I suppose I thought it would give you the chance at being the best or in the upper echelon of individuals that did this “thing” or action. This was back when I believed that the word talent was akin to God or at least the word divinity. I believed that our talents were bestowed upon us by the Creator or by happy luck. That the thing(s) you are naturally good at - are the things you are meant to do. In short, talent was destiny. This was when I woefully wanted to be a child prodigy. In hopes my father would love me and validate my existence. Talent, or lack there of, meant everything to me. If I tried something one or two times and I wasn’t good and I mean very good - then I would give up on it. Resigned to the absolute fact it was not meant for me. How many opportunities or abilities did I abandon early on - in fear of looming failure and mistakes? I knew I had to be perfect. My father was certainly very clear about this. I recently heard someone say to themselves: “You are safe to make mistakes.” It was a simple sentence but a truly profound thing to hear. Wow. I am safe? I can make mistakes? And I’m ok? Even loved still ? Ever? These are all stirring to my subconscious - to my inner child peeking through. I wish I had known that as a child. Hell as an adult. Mistakes are okay and you don’t have to be perfect.

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