I am no longer a consumer. I am a creator.

I am no longer a consumer. I am a creator. A protector. I am stronger but I feel more vulnerable in so many different ways. I feel more vigilant and on edge. My nerves are always heightened. Pregnancy was almost calming in a way. The dramatic changes in emotions, hormones and identity are difficult to navigate. I pray for patience and resilience, peace and beauty. I am growing and developing so much as a person right now. I recognize this as a challenging but important part of my development. I am always reaching toward, traveling toward a more evolved self. I want to reach my full potential. Challenges and dark days are apart of that desire, even though I hate it. Good things will come from trials and heartache always. In trial lies truth. Even ugly truth is important to recognize what you want to change in yourself and will no longer tolerate in others. Trial can reveal the truth about others and your relationship with them. Fair weather friends are good to recognize. It’s good to know the truth and where you stand with the people in your life. You aren’t just relying on their words - which are often false. It’s good to see who actually follows through with action in your life - even if it’s sad and disappointing to be let down. It’s good to see who stands on their words and who truly listens to yours.

Nombre quarante-trois / #43