Where have the days gone

I seriously don’t know. Taking care of an 11 month old - who seems to be getting all his teeth now at once (at least the front top ones) has been a whirlwind for a week. He’s finally able to sleep unattached to my body for a few hours at night. I think out of sheer exhaustion from teething. I’m currently trying to implement some of the things that I’ve been writing about. Making sure I stick to what I say and write. All of this has left me exhausted as well. Trying to get basic tasks and chores done to be immeasurably more difficult with a toddler and an annoying dog running around trying to steal or eat everything. I’m fine with - and even mostly joyfully amused with my toddler’s hijinks (almost everything he does is adorable) but not the dog. I usually have about 30 minutes of patience for the dog and then I just want him to go take a nap while me and the baby work on some stuff or play. I’ve been writing a bit but I find I don’t have the energy to add, edit and post. I’m passing out almost as soon as the baby is.

Right now I’ve been trying to re-harness my energy . Bring my focus back to me. I find myself scrolling through Instagram when I know I have personal work to do. That’s disappointing but I’m going to give myself some grace and continue down my path. I’m taking deep breaths and trying to find my center again. I am the center. I am calm. I am focused. I don’t need to do more research. I need to listen to myself. I need to create, to pour out of myself and overtime I will get better. It’s impossible not but I do have to put into action my goals.